I’m doing it again. I’m overwhelmed with too many thoughts about too many things. I have to learn that I cannot be involved in as much now or when I get involved, I can’t expect to “save the world.” God doesn’t expect this of me but rather to do only what I can. I don’t have to do it all.
I remember at a session with my cognitive therapist, she reminded me that sometimes I just have to say to myself loud and clear, “stop.” Right now many ideas and thoughts are darting through my mind about the Occupy movement here in Asheville and I must realize that it is not a good environment for someone who has a brain injury. I need structure and it is very unstructured. I can choose to leave it but I’m not ready to do this yet. I am in some discussions with folks in the movement about this so hopefully something will come out if them. I do need to stop thinking about it so much. It only stresses me out which makes it difficult for me to function.
The other thing I need to do is set boundaries. I have an Occupy folder so I can put things in there, close it and forget about it. As I was writing this post, someone from Occupy returned my call. There is a Facebook page for the movement that contains a lot of drama. I’m on it a lot since I’ve not been able to do a whole lot else. The person understood my concerns and seems to know many folks in the movement. I think he can help me plug in.
My conversation with him reminded me of another one I had with someone else really involved in the movement. I came away from that one feeling as I feel now. There are some good organizers in the group and they’re staying out of all the drama that is Occupy Asheville. I need to stop thinking about the drama and just get down to business. I’ll be a lot happier.