Lately, I’ve noticed my brain injury challenges are more present than they sometimes are. I’m trying to manage them but it is very hard. Yesterday I said to Michael, “Why don’t I ever see other survivors dealing with over-stimulation and cognitive issues? I see brain injury folks all the time attending meetings, workshops and other events and they don’t seem to struggle as I do.”
His answer? “Probably because they don’t get out in the community like you.” A light went on in my head and I thought back to all I’ve learned about brain injury. Perhaps the folks I see are less challenged by cognitive overload and stimulation issues. They may have other reactions such as slow speech or difficulty in using their hands or legs,
In addition, I feel called to work for justice in my world. That doesn’t make me better than others. It just gives me a different calling. I’ve chosen to continue working for justice even if it means sometimes exacerbating my brain injury weaknesses.
For example in Atlanta I pushed through those challenges by doing such things as visiting Terry Mincey on death row or spending 24 hours on the streets with the Open Door Community. The price paid was having to take it easy for several days. Here in Asheville, I choose to be arrested in the Moral Monday movement in Raleigh – four hours away. Again, I rested for days afterwards.
I’m so glad I did these things but I’m not sure I would want to pay the same price again. Now I’m deciding how important an issue is and whether my presence matters before making the decision to participate
Life is a journey and the wilderness often changes around us. I can’t keep living the way I used to live. I must always choose the path I believe God is calling me to travel. God then gives me what I need for the journey.
All of us are living in the wilderness and must listen for the Spirit’s voice. What is the Spirit saying to me now? I’m not sure. What is the Spirit guiding you to do? Feel free to answer in the comments because we are all in this life together. I’m interested.